my foster reality

Several of you have asked me to keep my blog up so that my new reality as a single mom can be shared with more people than just my family and close friends. So I will try my best, but I cannot guarantee that this will be something I do often. Again, I will try :) Many people have asked me why I chose foster care, basically meaning why did I choose to do this being single. Well, here is my answer: I live the best life, and as I have said to many, I am not buying into this "world's" way of thinking that life starts when you get married and have children. No, my life started when I accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior. So I am simply obeying what the Lord told me to do...and that's foster care. I agree, it seems extreme; however, I don't want to look normal. I don't want to blend in to this world. I want to build up treasure in Heaven, not build up my comfort here on earth. I just don't. So what wouldn't make sense is if I DIDN'T obey the Lord. Right? What if Noah hadn't obeyed the Lord? He looked crazy in the beginning but then it all made sense. What if Jesus hadn't obeyed? Goodness, what a disaster that would be had that been the case! Detrimental to all mankind,yet instead, He obeyed. I want to obey. I want to make a difference. So here I am Lord, send me! I am currently waiting any day now for a little baby girl to arrive at my home. Fear sometimes invades me; however, I wake up each day and I have the choice: I can choose to fear or I can choose to live in Freedom. And thankfully, every day I choose Freedom (although fear creeps in often). If we trust the Lord completely, then there isn't any room to fear. If we trust the world, we fear everything. I trust Jesus. I trust that He led me here. I trust that He won't leave me here either. He has plans, you guys. Big big plans. Bigger than anything we can fathom...seriously. Foster care is something I never dreamed of doing right now, but I am. I am convinced that when we hear other people's stories, our Faith grows and we develop a sense of His presence that is so strong that we simply cannot walk anywhere that He isn't. Thank you for your continued prayers and "check-ins." I am sure I will need my community over the next few months more than ever. I stand on this: He is before me and in Him all things hold together (Col.1:17).