ouch.

All I can say right now is ouch. I am reminded that you cannot put your faith in people, for they will always let you down. No matter how you feel about them or how much you trusted them, they are often not concerned with your heart. I know people's carelessness shouldn't amaze me, but it has. In the midst of this season in my life I remember that God has a perfect plan and I must walk in it regardless of what I may see directly in front of me. Romans 8:28 says that "He works for the good of those who are called according to his purpose" and I am clinging to this verse today. If I let the things of this earth get to me, then I am not being eternally focused; therefore, I will "not lost heart. Though outwardly I am wasting away, yet inwardly I am being renewed day by day. For my light and momentary troubles are achieving for me an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. I will fix my eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen" 2 Corinthians. So I lay it all down at Your feet. Patient waiting is an important discipline for anyone who wants to trust. I want to trust! I refuse self-pity and am putting my hope and Faith in the One who promises to always deliver. Thank You Lord for this time, for teaching me and molding me into the woman You would have me be. I am looking forward to a life filled with Joy and Peace! I want Your Will. Nothing more, nothing less, nothing else.
These are some of my desires:
I want to drink from the cup in Your hand, not my own.
I want to advance the Kingdom in a manner worthy of You.
I want to bring You honor.
I want to walk in obedience.
I want to be prayerful about everything.
I want to listen to Your voice and drown all the others out.
I want to forgive people how You forgive me.
I want to love how You love.
I want to serve how You came and served.
I want to reach others how You have reached them.
I want to take captive every thought and turn them all around to please You.
I want to find my rest in You.
I want to "not be anxious about anything, but be thankful and prayerful instead" (Phil. 4:6).
I want to ask for things that line up with Your will.
I want to speak words that You would be proud of...words that offer encouragement.
I want to be used, really used.
I want to be still and know that You are God.
I want my desires to be Your desires, my thoughts to be Your thoughts, and my actions to be Your actions.


"Steadfastness, that is holding on;
patience, that is holding back;
expectancy, this is holding the face up;
obedience, that is holding one's seld in readiness to go or do;
listening, that is holding quiet and still so as to hear." -S.D. Gordon